Tag: relationships

Could I have a lobotomy please? 4@ Thoughts

That’s how I’m feeling anymore. Or maybe they could just install a shut off button. My button needs placed at the “Hey Stupid it’s time to walk away he just keeps mistreating you” section of my head.

So, if anyone from the government is out there reading this, could you please make it happen? I’ll gladly be the guinea pig, anything is better than dealing with this S#++

Nothing is worse than pouring your life, love and trust into a relationship with nothing in return.  If you take anything from this post take this, if they start out as emotionally unavailable just go.

Almost two decades of my life, freely given to someone that has absolutely no empathy for me. Most likely, he has never loved me either. I guess when I commit to something I commit. Even when it hurts me, and has emotionally DESTROYED me. Not sure if that’s really a good thing, actually…I know it’s not.

Is it low self-esteem? I’m not sure to be honest. More than likely it’s from growing up feeling not wanted and unloved. For that has caused a cyclone of abuse that hasn’t died down. Its like sticky thistles stuck to your favorite socks. You think you’ve plucked them off only to find more. And sometimes they are REALLY stuck on there. You have two options, keep the socks with the thistles poking your ankles, or you throw them away. If you toss them you won’t feel the prickling pain anymore.

🤔 I think I just answered my own question about what I need to do in my life. How about that 😂 I always have great advice, unfortunately I never take it. I think I shall start!

I guess this is goodnight and good morning friends. Hope your Sunday is bright and beautiful ❤️

Shannon

Random Life Thought

Sometimes you have to know when to let go. When to break free from a situation that has done nothing but hold your spirit down. A situation, that has on many occasions, mentally and physically destroyed you.

Your wings have been removed, you are grounded, but need to fly. You do not attempt to let them grow, you constantly pluck them so you can remain obedient.

As your cage grows larger and the bars stronger you are filled with sadness and loneliness. You will most definitely die wondering what real love, compassion and freedom is.

To have your wings clipped is one thing, but to have them completely removed is another. You lose yourself, you lose who you were born to be.

At first it doesn’t matter, as time goes on and your alone, your eyes open, you realize that you are nothing but a space saver for someone else. You realize that you are a backup for those that disappoint and that do not show up.

As soon as you realize this, your wings begin to grow, you start to flap them, and then you fly. You sore higher than you ever thought you could. And you do it all alone.

You leave without looking back, because after all that’s what they did to you.

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Shannon