Tag: freedom

From An Article

It’s crazy to be given articles and read them, only to realize that my childhood most definitely affected the relationship that I chose.

For 19 years the cheating, lies and manipulation that Darius did, even to his own friends so they wouldn’t like me, it’s truly sad.

Regardless of what has happened, I hope he does get the proper help so he doesn’t do this to somebody else. I hope he gets the whole he needs mentally so he doesn’t physically and emotionally and even at times sexually abuse his next partner.

And the reason why I say sexual abuse, is through counseling I have learned the following,

Scaring someone into performing sexual acts they are not comfortable with, physical and emotional abuse so they are forced to perform the sexual act of your choosing is sexual abuse.

Never EVER allow someone to make you feel like you have to, to make you feel like if you don’t that they’re going to put their hands on you, or show you their uncontrollable rage until you do what they want.

I never realized how free I really was until November of last year. And had I not called the police August 12th and had him arrested for domestic violence, I may have never known that there are wonderful men out there. Men that will respect you, that will not make you feel like you owe them something sexually, that will appreciate you for who you are and the things that you do on a daily basis.

My children have never been this happy, they have never felt this calm and free. To see them no longer panic or worry or have extreme anxiety attacks everyday, I wish I would have left a long time ago. But it’s better late than never, at least I did it before he choked the last breath out of me. Like he said a few years ago, he himself was afraid that he was going to seriously hurt me or one of the girls. And I was in such denial, I was so blind and so emotionally destroyed, I wanted to fix him I thought I could fix him.

You can’t fix anyone that doesn’t want to be fixed.

Below is part of an article that I read.

Shannon

Never Let Your Loyalty Make A Fool Out Of You

Abusers and cheaters do not change, just camouflage themselves temporarily. Waiting till they are wrapped around you like a boa. Only then do they begin to reappear.

They silently suck the life out of you while strangling you to the point of unconsciousness. Hypnotizing you with their lies and deceitful ways. You become delirious and out of touch with life.

If a snake strikes once, do not think you can tame it. Over time, you may assume you have done enough. That you were GOOD ENOUGH to calm the wild serpent.

He waits to strike again, knowing he fooled you. That he has gained your love, trust and loyalty.  He uses all three to manipulate and abuse you. He leaves you mentally destroyed, and slithers along the path of destruction he leaves behind.

If you cut the head off the first time, his venom will not flow through your veins. He won’t have the chance to consume your heart. When you feel your body tightening up from the emotional and physical abuse, LEAVE. Do NOT be his prey.

Shannon

Random Life Thought

Sometimes you have to know when to let go. When to break free from a situation that has done nothing but hold your spirit down. A situation, that has on many occasions, mentally and physically destroyed you.

Your wings have been removed, you are grounded, but need to fly. You do not attempt to let them grow, you constantly pluck them so you can remain obedient.

As your cage grows larger and the bars stronger you are filled with sadness and loneliness. You will most definitely die wondering what real love, compassion and freedom is.

To have your wings clipped is one thing, but to have them completely removed is another. You lose yourself, you lose who you were born to be.

At first it doesn’t matter, as time goes on and your alone, your eyes open, you realize that you are nothing but a space saver for someone else. You realize that you are a backup for those that disappoint and that do not show up.

As soon as you realize this, your wings begin to grow, you start to flap them, and then you fly. You sore higher than you ever thought you could. And you do it all alone.

You leave without looking back, because after all that’s what they did to you.

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Shannon