Category: Poems

It feels as though I’m fighting against a current, one that is so much stronger than me.

There are no life preservers, the winds will not die down, I can slowly feel myself slipping under, swallowing water, I thrash, I’m starting to drown.

I’ve battled the same beasts, the same evil monsters my entire life,

Their outside appearance has been a bit different, yet their insides have always been alike.

Battling with my mind, secretly fighting all that they are, trying to protect the ones I love from obtaining anymore scars.

The demons that reside within them are some of the worst I’ve seen by far, they keep them hidden under a cloak, this way NO ONE really knows who they are.

The ones that suffer the most, when he unleashes his toxic fumes, it’s myself and our own children, our mental health he continues to consume.

There’s one thing as tricky as him, that weighs you down like a blanket of cinder blocks. Rage is not the only black cloud over his head, There is Something else he will never escape.

It’s sticky, heavy and as dark as tar, it’s covered his heart and made him turn sour. It’s consumed him from the time he was a child, and this is what we call HATE.

Shannon Lynn Anderson (Barker)

Untitled Poem

“If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.” – Martin Luther King Jr

I’m trying, some days are good, some are GREAT,
And some I smile just to hide the pain.

Hold back the tears, chin up, you’re strong.
No sleep, broken mind but still carry on.

My feet are permanently planted on solid ground so it seems,

But that’s just an illusion, even one I cannot see.

One day I will rise, just Like a Phoenix and the Sun,

From these ashes I will crawl, and who will hurt me? NO ONE

SLA

9/24/23

And off to work ❤️

Poem #1

Staring at the ceiling holding back my tears,

Tired of this pain inside and tired of my fears.

Holding on to something empty, trying to let go,

Something always pulls me in, but what I do not know.

Inside I feel so weak, yet I know that I am strong,

So when will all these endless thoughts disappear, vaporize and just be gone?

He never gives you more than you can carry, at least that’s what they say,

Can you see my back is broken? I can’t carry anymore, there’s no way.

Goodnight Friends

Disposable Child

Throughout my life you’ve always been in and out,
Constantly creating this shadow of doubt.
As a child I would wait for you to appear,
Thinking maybe this time you’d remember me here.
As the sun goes down and continues to fade,
The sky dims a bit and turns a cool grey.
I’ve waited and waited ever so patiently,
As time ticked on, I knew you forgot me.
Back into the house, that I wish I had left,
Wishing I was gone, I then take a deep breath.
She looks at me coldly and then starts to say,
“I told you he’d forget you like every other day.”.
“He’s not going to come, he just doesn’t care”,
“Your not that important, you’re not even there.”.
“He has a new girlfriend and a six-pack of beer”,
“What makes you even think he would want you near?”.
So I drag my bags back inside the house,
With tears down my face, yet quiet as a mouse.
Why didn’t he come? What did I do wrong?
Maybe she’s right he didn’t care all along.
Was I not wanted and just in his way,
Did he even know that I waited all day?
If he wanted to get me he would have been here,
Was I really replaced with a six-pack of beer?
So as night falls I now climb into bed,
With visions of daddy stuck in my head.
Hoping one day that you’ll clearly see,
You never hurt her you only hurt me.

September 11th, 2018

An Original Poem By Myself

Shannon Anderson