Hey everyone! Lets start this off, I would like to openly share who I am, where I come from, and where I am today. I was born in a small town called Conneaut in the state of Ohio. My full birth name is Shannon Lynn Barker. I had a mother and father till the age of 3 1/2. My father couldn’t take living with my mother so off he went. I did not see much of him growing up. So I figured he just didn’t want me. I have few memories of him, and shockingly they are pretty good.
Around the age of nine I told my mother that my grandfather was touching me and making me touch him. The sexual abuse began way before that age. I remember that day like it was yesterday. I’ll talk about that at some point as well.
Ah, good old Rowe Middle and Conneaut High School, Now that was NOT my idea of fun nor a safe place for me. I was always picked on and bullied. It seemed the boys had just as much to say to me as the girls. No matter how nice I was, or how hard I tried to fit in, that never mattered. I was tall, thin and attractive, so I was a Virgin slut. My mom couldn’t afford name brand cloths, so that was the number one topic in the middle school choir class. Little did these fellow classmates know, that before as well as after school I had to face more abuse at the hands of my mother. I had those few people who were kind to me, they did not pick on me they even said hi to me everyday. I will mention them all at some point.
It just so happens, I grew up with a very physically and mentally abusive mother, unfortunately nothing made her happy. It seemed anything that went wrong was my fault. There were times my face alone could piss her off. I was always walking on eggshells around her, even looking back now, im surprised im still alive.
My life has so much depth, abuse, heartache, loss. But it all wasnt horrible. I have had a little fun in my lifetime. Like most humans on this planet, I have made my fair share of mistakes. After all, that’s what life is about, making a mistake, and then hopefully learning from it. I will say this much, I made the same one more than once. Sometimes, there were many times I was just plain gullible.
I’ll let you all know, I tend to jump around a lot. so what I write one day may not connect to the day before. I am not a pro at this whole blogging thing, it is something I have wanted to do for five years, so what the hell! I may forget to capitalize something, I may not always speak proper. I promise you all this, the one thing you get with me is, compassion and honesty. I am the realist B**** you will come across.
“Life is all about evolution. What looks like a mistake to others has been a milestone in my life. Even if people have betrayed me, even if my heart was broken, even if people misunderstood or judged me, I have learned from these incidents. We are human and we make mistakes, but learning from them is what makes the difference.” Amisha Patel
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